Matthew 6: 25-27, 33-34
Therefore (because you can't serve both God and money) I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
The future is worry, the land of "what if this? what if that?"
Today is resting in God. I am His; He is with me.
This new phase of challenge is a new kind of challenge. When going through chemo or bone marrow transplant or immunotherapy, all those had "clear" beginnings and ends. The results weren't know, but in the day to day moments, the focus was on the battle at hand.
Yesterday, I met with Dr. Pineiro. I have no symptoms. I feel good. A simple CBC shows my RBC's, platelets and WBC's are all at good levels. I enjoyed the day. There is no treatment, no battle of the day. There is simply living in the day, day by day, and in a month, if no symptoms crop up before then, another simple blood test.
Today, I can enjoy the day before me or I can give in to the "what if's." By His grace and strength, I will not worry about tomorrow. I will enjoy this day His given me.
In this paradigm, making future plans challenges me to hold them loosely. I would like to take a trip to Cinci in August. I plan, avoid the temptations of the what if's mental gymnastics, and know that His good and perfect plan will be good and perfect.
If you look at the tapestry of your's and my lives from the backside, it can be disconcerting. A tangle of knots, crossed threads, no real pattern. Turn it over, and God can show you and me the beauty of all He's done in our enduring, wrestling, walking and how He are wove it all into a unique and beautiful tapestry of His doing.
May His mercy and grace be yours in full measure today. May you know His peace that surpasses all understanding; the peace of faith in Jesus Christ, the Messiah.
